i am sitting looking at a cruise ship called the ‘elation’ and even though i don’t believe in such things, i feel like it is a sign from the universe. it is not often that i am content to just sit and be somewhere, but right now the sun feels medicinal and the pacific ocean is blinding me with its sparkle, i feel like i could stay on this bench forever and ever. the pigeons come within inches and the hoards of strollers are not even bothering me, i am waiting for it to be three o’clock so i can send a text message to the other side of the world. later on tonight i am going to sit and watch planes land from jenn’s balcony, she lives under the flightpath and i wish i could say i knew what to expect when she told me- but it is so much more awesome, the planes come so close and i hope she forgives me when i make the ‘did you ever think bugs bunny was attractive when he dressed like a girl bunny? ‘ joke.

2009 is almost over and in hindsight it was awesome, for the first time i feel like i might have some idea of what i want from life and i am ready to leave the ’00s behind. not in a ‘good riddance’ kind of way, but more of a: the sun is finally shining on me, my ship is coming in, the ocean looks like it goes on forever but i’ve been to where it meets the other side. happy new year, new decade, everything is sanguine.